Saturday 20 June 2009

i long to tell you...

The moment I open my eyes till I shut them at night, it's still you that i think of. It's crazy! I don't know how you make me feel this way, but all i know is that there's something about you that makes me thirst for more! Maybe it's the way you look into my eyes and how i gaze back realising how beautiful you are and how this makes me certain that you're all i want.. all iever want. I know you would hate it if i say I love you, but what am i suppose to say when every little thing you do makes me feel this way?
You're like the air I breath. Without you.. I'd die! i know you probably think i'm being over the top about this whole thing but i got no other ways of expressing how important you are to me. ugh!! i hate this.. im "in love" with someone who i'm not going out with.. it kills me to think that we can never be together.. I've wasted too many chances.. and i hate myself for letting those time pass by. Maybe if i was alert enough at the time, i would've payed you more attention and returned the love and affection you deserved.. but now it's far too late.. you're with someone who i think you're better off with... I'm so stupid to have taken you're presence for granted and never realised how special you are..
I know this would sound mean but i sometimes wish that you two would break up so i could have another chance to be with you, but NO! i cnt think this way.. i can't hope for this to happen.. I want you to be happy and never get hurt.. i guess i'll just have to accept the fact that i'm too late.. i'll have to just let you go and be happy that you're in love with someone who will treat you better and give you better care than i can..
I don't know where to start.. how to move on and how to forget.. I long to tell you everything but i'm way too late..and plus, i dnt have the gutts to tell you,,, i'm too much of a wuss!
Seeing you happy with someone else hurts me alot coz i think of what if that someone else was me? maybe my life would be alot happier and i would be over the moon to have you heer in my life...

I'll be here still waiting for a secind chance... and this time if that opportunity comes again i will definitely graps it with both hands, hold on tight and put as much effort as i can to make eveything the way it should be.. I love you and i can only hope for you to feel the the same way as i do..

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